You might not realize it, but you make me terribly sad.  You tell me you are upset, but you won’t let me do anything to help.  I call you all the time and text you, and I know Verizon and At&t hate eachother, but I know you must get more of my text and calls than you put on, you seem to get most if not all Clay’s (which he is on Verizon too).  I love you, you are a great freind to me, and you mean everything to me.  Right now I immediatley want to see you to cheer you up, but I also just plain out want to see you.  We always have a ball everytime we hang out, and everytime I leave we always say we should do it more, yet we never do.  I’ve never had the stones to say it, because I’m alwasy afraid you’d get defensive, and you’d push me away.  I say this on here because I know I would never do it if I tried any other way.  Also, I like Clay, I really do.  I’m usually overly protective of my freinds and end up disliking their significant others, even if they are nice people, just because I know they have the power to hurt my friend.  He is a pretty cool guy, and is very nice (to me at least, I can’t vouch for others, I’m not really around him in groups).  But, I don’t think you guys a re for eachother.  I know me and a choice few agree.  You are both great people, but you guys butt heads way to often, and all he always ends up making you sad in the end.  I don’t know how it is on his end of the bargain, but I’m sure its not always well either.  And, STOP SAYING NO ONE ELSE WILL TAKE YOU.  You are amazing.  You are beautiful (regardless what you say or think), funny, fun to hang out with, caring, and the list goes on.  You are a great catch, and you should realize that.  Maybe its just that its past 5 in the morning, and I’m loopy from lack of sleep (but whats new right?), but hell, I know I’d take you.  Bet you didn’t think I’d come out and say that, huh?  You are one of the most important people in my life, and I’d never want to fuck that up, and this in no way changes what we are and have.  You always tell me you need to be interested in someone else, and you’re afraid no one else would ever want you.  Yet, I’m right in front of your face.  And I know I can’t be the only person that would take you, there are many people out there.  I’m not one to say what you should and should not do, but you definately need to change something, thats obvious.  You are not happy, and it keeps circling around, trapping you in it, and its going to continue and spiral downward taking you with it.  I want you to be happy, but only you have the choice to embrace that and make the changes to keep you from being so sad.  I love you, and I want whats best for you.  Please call/text/message/reblog/etc me.  I miss you, I’m sure you could use a freind around, and I need some more Sara in my life.